This was less of a night to remember, and more of a night that is etched into my brain, a night that I try so hard to forget. It never evades my memory, no matter how badly I wish it would. It caused me great pain and worry, but I will always remember it, because it was a sign that I wanted to get better. It was a sign that there was something more inside of me than just those terrible, awful things. This day was a priceless crystal vase slipping out of somebody 's clumsy, fumbling hands. Trying to keep it from falling, even though it looks almost suspended in midair for a moment. You 're stuck knowing that it isn 't something you would be able catch, then being forced to watch in slow motion as the crystal’s glimmering, …show more content…
On the fifth day of November I had more energy than what should fit inside of a person all at once. It was like every day of the past year that I spent sluggish and wishing I was dead, was just all getting stored somewhere and saving up for this day where it finally all came out. First thing in the morning my class had gym, we were playing volleyball, and I actually actively participated for once. I enjoyed myself, and there was this energy all around me, better than anything I’d felt in a long time. After class, my teacher pulled me aside and asked if I was doing better. I was for the day, and even though I didn’t know how long it would last, I said yes. He told me that the rest of the class did better when I was doing well, and I continued marily through my day that was put in fast forward. For the first time, I really realized that my actions and outlook affected the quality of work put out by the people around me. I felt like I actually belonged and meant something. I don’t know if what he said was the truth, or just to be polite, but I also don’t care, because it