Essay on A Most Unusual Friendship

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A Most Unlikely Friendship
Lindsay Webb
ENG121 – English Composition
Brandon Bond
February 24, 2015

A Most Unlikely Friendship
It was spring of my last semester studying at a technical college. It has been a long 18 months and the chill of winter had just lifted. I found myself restless and lonely. I had left a long term relationship just before entering school. I had tried dating some, unsuccessfully. I had given up on finding a friend. When I least expected it the friend I wished for would enter my life. The friendship that would then develop between us was anything but ordinary. This friendship would turn out to be the biggest source of compassion and patience I had ever been afforded and it would also be most unconventional in
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I have to take responsibility for the vast majority of the trials and tribulations that would take place in that time. I went back and forth and attempted to revive the relationship I should have left completely alone. I would later bear the weight of guilt and shame of selfishly using what has now become more a dead horse than a relationship, every time I became scared and insecure. I became lonely and was not yet consciously aware of how little love had for myself. This took the form of me looking for love outside of myself. I also sought validation from the approval and acceptance of a man. I called it “dating.” It was a complete disaster. I wasted a great deal of time and energy and resources looking for someone to love me. I wanted so desperately to fill the empty in me. Eventually I was left no other alternative than to finally let go once and for all of the past that no longer was and cut ties with my ex entirely. I also could no longer ignore the ridiculous behavior in my pursuit of love and a man. I had turned dating into self-destructive and dangerous behavior. I had turned to drinking to cope. I spent the vast majority of my time closed off from the family and rest of the world in my room. It sounds bleak I know. It also was not as neat as I am able to summate here. It however would be the beginning of a long hard, chaotic, road out of denial and an unconscious fog. It would make stops at one more failed attempt to return to Arizona, a nervous…

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