My Essay About Myself As A Scholarship Writer

At the end of July, I considered giving up on scholarship writing again. With all the hours I poured into my last essay, it felt like a slap in the face that they didn’t even send a “thank you for trying” letter. I spent the announcement day sitting on my in-law’s porch sipping coffee with Baileys and stewing over yet another essay contest loss. What did the winners do that I did not? Moreover, how do some authors become so famous when I struggled to write a simple essay? Meditating on this, chin resting on curled fingers the same way authors pose for pictures, I wonder if I keep losing contests because my life is not exciting enough to be a good writer. By 2016, U of L’s tuition jumped to a chest tightening $11,068 which made it impossible for me to continue paying for school out of pocket. In an online search for …show more content…
With no experience, it was going to take several months to make a quality paper, so I allotted time for research before I started brainstorming. The brainstorming process became an exercise in being honest with myself, as most of the stories in my essays were either fake or over exaggerated. Other scholarship winners seemed to have these extraordinary life stories which led me to believe they won because of their experience, not because of the quality of their writing.
Writing essays is a much more enjoyable experience these days now that I’ve corrected my past mistakes. Giving myself a much longer deadline to complete papers, and having a written to-do list for my writing process soothes the jittery, chest-tightening anxiety of putting together papers. I am spending a little more time on papers each week instead of quitting early to browse YouTube or Reddit. Figuring out ideas and losing contests still makes me grind my teeth in frustration, but overall it’s deeply satisfying to go through the self-discovery process of teaching myself something