I have to tell you what is going on through my head that I have never told anyone else since Gatsby arrived in my life. The love that I have for him is immeasurable, but I do not know how to communicate my feelings to Tom and also Gatsby. I am very troubled by this decision should I leave Tom and get thrown out of the east egg club or should I forget about Gatsby and feel nothing but pain from Tom. At one of Gatsby’s parties that I attended I felt very awkward and disgusted because the people there were not all about gestures, but they were all acting as if no one cared. Another time when I went to Gatsby’s house, it was just me and him, he went into his closet and threw all these beautiful shirts out at me. While he was throwing the shirts
