Worth It.
She used to be blind. She used to pretend she could see everything so clearly, but truthfully she never realized until it was too late.
There was the fighting. They had none of that when it all began. They were happy, when it began. They'd kiss sweetly, send each other signs they were certain no body else could read. Signs which were entitled to them and them alone. Soft smiles, short but tender gazes. They didn't care who noticed, because they knew everyone would think of it as friendly. Things best friends do, but it was all so much more. It was so much more complicated than that.
Zel loved him. She can't deny that, just like she won't deny that the fact that she misses him. But it's only the good times Zel misses, the times when a simple nuzzle on the cheek, a peck on the lips would make her heart skip a beat. When Zel would flush bright red every time her eyes met Drake. When she would shiver like …show more content…
She used to believe in those words, she used to cling to them. Zel lied in that belief, both to him and to everybody else. She swore she'd never leave him, that she'd never be able to walk out on him. Zel believed it when she said it, but it all meant nothing in the end. The words were all just that - words. Because the emotions faded, and Zel's patience had waned.
She did love Drake back then, and she misses him still. She misses his scent; cologne mixed with after shave, nicotine and some forgotten lotion. She never learned which one, never memorized the label. She remembers the feel of Drake's skin; soft, smooth and so frail she thought sometimes it'd break, and it did. She misses the smiles, the caresses, the kisses, the snuggling, the secrets, the late nights. But she doesn't miss his hysteria, his panicking, his manipulation, his insanity dragging her down and destroying all they ever were, all they ever
She used to be blind. She used to pretend she could see everything so clearly, but truthfully she never realized until it was too late.
There was the fighting. They had none of that when it all began. They were happy, when it began. They'd kiss sweetly, send each other signs they were certain no body else could read. Signs which were entitled to them and them alone. Soft smiles, short but tender gazes. They didn't care who noticed, because they knew everyone would think of it as friendly. Things best friends do, but it was all so much more. It was so much more complicated than that.
Zel loved him. She can't deny that, just like she won't deny that the fact that she misses him. But it's only the good times Zel misses, the times when a simple nuzzle on the cheek, a peck on the lips would make her heart skip a beat. When Zel would flush bright red every time her eyes met Drake. When she would shiver like …show more content…
She used to believe in those words, she used to cling to them. Zel lied in that belief, both to him and to everybody else. She swore she'd never leave him, that she'd never be able to walk out on him. Zel believed it when she said it, but it all meant nothing in the end. The words were all just that - words. Because the emotions faded, and Zel's patience had waned.
She did love Drake back then, and she misses him still. She misses his scent; cologne mixed with after shave, nicotine and some forgotten lotion. She never learned which one, never memorized the label. She remembers the feel of Drake's skin; soft, smooth and so frail she thought sometimes it'd break, and it did. She misses the smiles, the caresses, the kisses, the snuggling, the secrets, the late nights. But she doesn't miss his hysteria, his panicking, his manipulation, his insanity dragging her down and destroying all they ever were, all they ever