-posting this because Desmond keeps telling me that I should.- So this is a dream that I used to have for a while. It started a week or two or something like that before I left the fam forever ago. This was a good majoraty of why I ended up leaving. I let this stupid dream get to me and it just bothered me so damn much. I really don't know why I didn't just say anything about it to someone then. If I did then I would have never left. I just hate talking about it since it bothers me a lot.
Also, let me tell you some background about the woman in this dream. I've had a lot of dreams about this lady. I've tried to piece all the dreams together, and so far I think she's trying to create some kind of army or she tried to. Or maybe she just wanted …show more content…
Those people do not care about you. They do not trust you. They are just going to use you and then leave you like you never even excisted. I would never do that to you. They will make your life hell if you stay there. And then you will come back to me, crying about how I was right and that you should have listened to me." I kept shaking me head as I tried to block her voice out. "You need to listen to me. You have to listen to me. If they were your family then where are they now. Why are they not saving you from me? Huh? Please tell me." I stopped shaking my head as I listened to her. She was quiet for a while after that. I listened as she walked away. I can't remember what she was doing, but she ended up coming back with some kind of needle that had something in it. I stayed quiet as she carefully shoved the needle into my neck. It stung, but it oddly gave me some comfort. "Now are you going to listen to me? Do you finally believe me?" This is the point were I would just start freaking out. I would start screaming at her. -Literally screaming- I would yell no at her and just yell random things at her while I tried to break free from whatever I was tied up to just so that I could rip this woman to shreds. She started yelling back at me. Screaming over and over about how no one trusted me or how no one cared about me. After a while I would just stop completly and just lay there. Not moving or breathing. And that's when I would wake up. It seems a lot shorter now that I've written it, but in the dream I remember it feeling like was a long time. And to you guys, it probably doesn't seem like a big deal, but it was to me. I kept having these dreams every single night and then I was starting to have different fucked up dreams about people from the fam -those dreams will never be written, because fucking no. The only one I've even thought about telling is Chris because I know he has fucked up dreams like that too, but I decided not to because they
Also, let me tell you some background about the woman in this dream. I've had a lot of dreams about this lady. I've tried to piece all the dreams together, and so far I think she's trying to create some kind of army or she tried to. Or maybe she just wanted …show more content…
Those people do not care about you. They do not trust you. They are just going to use you and then leave you like you never even excisted. I would never do that to you. They will make your life hell if you stay there. And then you will come back to me, crying about how I was right and that you should have listened to me." I kept shaking me head as I tried to block her voice out. "You need to listen to me. You have to listen to me. If they were your family then where are they now. Why are they not saving you from me? Huh? Please tell me." I stopped shaking my head as I listened to her. She was quiet for a while after that. I listened as she walked away. I can't remember what she was doing, but she ended up coming back with some kind of needle that had something in it. I stayed quiet as she carefully shoved the needle into my neck. It stung, but it oddly gave me some comfort. "Now are you going to listen to me? Do you finally believe me?" This is the point were I would just start freaking out. I would start screaming at her. -Literally screaming- I would yell no at her and just yell random things at her while I tried to break free from whatever I was tied up to just so that I could rip this woman to shreds. She started yelling back at me. Screaming over and over about how no one trusted me or how no one cared about me. After a while I would just stop completly and just lay there. Not moving or breathing. And that's when I would wake up. It seems a lot shorter now that I've written it, but in the dream I remember it feeling like was a long time. And to you guys, it probably doesn't seem like a big deal, but it was to me. I kept having these dreams every single night and then I was starting to have different fucked up dreams about people from the fam -those dreams will never be written, because fucking no. The only one I've even thought about telling is Chris because I know he has fucked up dreams like that too, but I decided not to because they