If the rainbow, or the word Fabulous didn’t set you off, here’s my confirmation: I’m gay. You know the saying “straight as an arrow”? Well, if I was that arrow I’d be bent at 50 different places, on fire, and if I got shot I’d have a rainbow as a trail. So yeah, I’m super gay. But, figuring out I was gay was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I mean I didn’t even know the proper name for it when I was younger. I’m from a super selectively religious household, and being gay just happened to be one of those things they selected to hate. Now you have a little background information, so let me dive in.
I don’t really know when it started, but I have some core moments about figuring out my sexuality. Like in Elementary school, I was wondering what the world “homosexuality” meant. I mean my family was always saying it and how it was a really bad thing to be. So, I googled the term, which lead me to a website that explained it. The more I read, the less I understood. Some words I couldn’t understand because my English reading skills and vocabulary were not that great. So, naturally I went to my mom. I got up and innocently asked my mom to explain what it meant. In a matter of seconds my mother became the …show more content…
The thing is you are never really done coming out, but it gets easier each time. And refusing to ever come out is just sad. Maybe as a child it’s ok, you don’t know what your feeling, it’s scary trying to face the world, but at some point you have to walk out and accept the truth. Because trust me, the air out here is so much better. Yeah, of course you are going to meet people who will ridicule you for who you are and you may lose some friends and family, but just always remember: “those that matter don’t mind, and those that mind don’t matter.” I just want other kids to know that it does get better; does it take a long time? Yeah, but you don’t see diamonds popping out of the ground every
I don’t really know when it started, but I have some core moments about figuring out my sexuality. Like in Elementary school, I was wondering what the world “homosexuality” meant. I mean my family was always saying it and how it was a really bad thing to be. So, I googled the term, which lead me to a website that explained it. The more I read, the less I understood. Some words I couldn’t understand because my English reading skills and vocabulary were not that great. So, naturally I went to my mom. I got up and innocently asked my mom to explain what it meant. In a matter of seconds my mother became the …show more content…
The thing is you are never really done coming out, but it gets easier each time. And refusing to ever come out is just sad. Maybe as a child it’s ok, you don’t know what your feeling, it’s scary trying to face the world, but at some point you have to walk out and accept the truth. Because trust me, the air out here is so much better. Yeah, of course you are going to meet people who will ridicule you for who you are and you may lose some friends and family, but just always remember: “those that matter don’t mind, and those that mind don’t matter.” I just want other kids to know that it does get better; does it take a long time? Yeah, but you don’t see diamonds popping out of the ground every