No one has a choice in weather or not to live but you can choose to end your life. Not a lot of people would think of this decision but those are the lucky ones. I tried to commit suicide after 17 years of living and just thought …show more content…
The most constant question everyone asked me when I was going to the hospital was why did you do it? The same question everyone kept asking me was the same question I kept asking myself. There a lot of reasons for why I did what I did but I think the main reason was to stop the pain I was feeling day to day. As a kid you don’t really understand the things that go on around you and just do what you are told. I was very lonely ever since I was a kid I never had a friend and no real guidance in life. My dad work 24/7 to provide a good life but what’s the point having everything without anyone to share it with. So I never really understood anything when growing up why I felt so lonely and scared all the time. I was always quiet and minded my own business. I got bullied all the way up till junior year to the point where I was beaten so bad I couldn’t barley breath and bruised till I was bleeding on my birthday. There’s a whole list of things I could name that could contribute to my sadness but the one main reason to why I tried to end my life was my lack of hope. The hope that things would change and that life would get better. Seeing all the terrible things that happen to people and all around the world I have no hope the future. I didn’t want to go day to day thinking .about that with till the day I die I rather just end it all