Why Did My Uncle Committed Suicide?

I was 13 when my uncle committed suicide. I was extremely close to him, and he didn't get along with his own son. He treated my brother and I as his own. He was a brave man, and while we often didn't see him for long due to his work, we were extremely close to him. He would repair helicopters for the military, and would travel across the world to do so. Whenever he went to a different country, he would buy something for my brother and I. Stuff like Kinder eggs, little statues, and just neat little trinkets and such.
Anyways, when he was diagnosed with throat cancer (which both his father and grandfather died of), he was no longer able to do any of the exhilarating things he was so fond of. He told his wife and son that he planned to go scuba diving without a tank, as he was in Hawaii at the time. He wanted to die somewhere beautiful and exciting while he was still able to do so. After everybody in the family talked him out of it, he came home to begin chemo. A couple months later, the majority of which we didn't get to see him, he shot himself after his family left for the day. …show more content…
I was extremely depressed, became suicidal, and had panic attacks every day. I couldn't go to school anymore. Over time I've been prescribed various medicines, have seen 7 different therapists/coursers. Nothing seemed to help. After about a year, I was enrolled in online schooling. For some reason, despite not attending any of my classes and failing everything for nearly 3 years, I was still never held back. I only just started attending the online school this last semester. I'm still in no condition to return to the regular brick and mortar school, and I only have 2 classes online for the time being. Things are just starting to look up though. Finally on some meds that seem to actually be doing something, slowly regaining my confidence and attending classes again, and more or less able to enjoy my day to day