The three lowest SPR for me are past views, control, and trust. Past views are in the negative area of the self cluster. Some key behaviors of past view are being too structured and underestimating your abilities. Control is in the external area of the self cluster. The control behaviors are worrying having self-defeating thoughts and feeling helpless. The third lowest SPR is trust and that is located in the distrust section of the others cluster. Some behaviors that involve trust issues are isolating yourself, poor communication skills and defensive behaviors toward others.
Are These Realistic Results?
My past views located in the negative sector of the self cluster. I tend to relate things that happen in the present to past …show more content…
I try not to worry about things that I have no control over. I say it will be okay in my mind, but I still think about certain issues. When an issue happens at work I begin to have negative thoughts about was it my fault. I question myself if I could have done something different for a better result. Usually, I am overthinking issues that I can not change. This is a combination of the past views and control. The past negative events that happen were due to an unforeseen circumstance that I do not have control over. I still contemplate and reenact the events in my mind to see if I could have done anything differently. Due to these events, I do not take risks because I am afraid of making …show more content…
Two of my lowest score are in the self cluster and I realize I have issues dealing with my own problems. I learned this behavior from my parents who were very suspicious of others. The sign of a strong character was not to show your true feelings. You keep that hidden because showing feeling was a sign of weakness. They were always on their guard and never allowing themselves to have deep friendships with nonfamily members. When I meet someone it takes time for me to open up and show them the real me. I feel that they have to earn my trust. I do not take a risk and can be predictable at times. I do want to feel vulnerable having people know my inner feelings and ideas. I know it is a problem because I can not have true intimacy with anyone. The wall I have built suffocates my creativity and I feel that holds me back at work. I am going to try to use some of the suggestions in the SPR report to help me change. I am going to challenge myself to have positive thoughts. I am going to be more open and available for people to really have a deep conversation with me about my ideas and feeling. I want to be more adventurous and take some risks. This can help with my personal and professional relationships. Instead of having acquaintances I can have deep friendships that enrich my life. I can unlock my creative abilities that help me at work to let go