Describe A Condition Of Severe Anxiety

I had woken up to complete and utter darkness. My mind was mentally and physically frazzled. This wave of darkness engulfed my body and my happiness was no longer anywhere to be found. I began a classic game of hide-in-go-seek in attempts to find out the reason behind this sudden transition of mood. What I found hiding was absolutely horrific and would soon change my life for the worst. I found myself trapped in my own mind pacing over the exact same locations repeatedly. At this moment I realized I was my own worst nightmare. I was a prisoner of my own mind. However, I instantly began planning my escape. Giving up was something I was not very fond of. Giving up has never been apart of my morals and in my personal opinion it shouldn 't be …show more content…
Anxiety is defined as the following: “a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.” Whereas post traumatic stress disorder is defined as the following: “a condition of persistent mental and emotional stress occurring as a result of injury or severe psychological shock, typically involving disturbance of sleep and constant vivid recall of the experience, with dulled responses to others and to the outside world.”. Although I suffer from these illnesses I still struggle to describe its true effects on me as a person. The lack of description causes a gap between the inhabitants of the illness and the people who want to understand the illness. The gap allows for the victims to avoid telling their peers about their illness and put on what I like to call a fake front. I define a fake front as putting on a fake smile when in reality you want to cry. The best way to relate what these illnesses perform on me is to imagine a constant battle between your true self and your subconscious. It eventually consumes your entire life and embarks on a mission to slowly but surely deprive you of everything. Now that you hopefully have a higher fathom of what my illnesses are I 'll begin to explain how this made me take a turn down a very dark …show more content…
I awake in the morning feeling like a truck ran me over but somehow I managed to survive the accident. I feel this way because I only receive around two to four hours of sleep a night if I 'm lucky. I then enter school where I battle my mind constantly daydreaming about the events that triggered my post traumatic stress disorder. Everything the teacher says is a blur. I then move on to lunch and by this time I am SO HUNGRY that I could eat a horse. Unfortunately, food makes me sick so I skip out on that meal. I then go home where my anxiety trails along after me and cause me to have a three to four hour panic attack. I am physical, mentally, and emotionally