Narrative Essay On Self Esteem

It was in middle school at the ages of about 12 or 13 that I was so certain that everybody could see the pimple on my cheek and that I was being judged for it a phenomenon that is so aptly named the imaginary audience. I was convinced that everyone could remember the last time that I had worn this shirt or see the tiny glob of toothpaste I hadn’t seen before I’d left the house. All of this was in my head, but like most teenagers I was incredibly concerned with fitting in. My self-esteem during middle school hit an all-time low as I began to really compare myself to my peers. I wasn’t as skinny as her, or as pretty as her, or as smart as him, and I didn’t have as many friends as all of them. It was exhausting, constantly feeling as though …show more content…
In the first semester of my 9th grade year at the age of 15 I had an asthma attack while at school. This was something I have struggled with my whole life, though it has gotten better as I have gotten older. But I’d had a cold the previous week, while this might not typically be dangerous for most people cold’s often irritated my lungs and caused me to have asthma attacks. I had to be taken for a while out of school because even after the attack I had a tight chest and found things as simple as walking up stairs difficult. It was the end of the semester, and I was out for over two weeks. When it was time to take my missed finals and make up for missed work I did poorly due to having missed so much school. My grades were in the C and D range when I was done and that knocked me out of cheerleading. The school was uncooperative, refusing to work with my mother or myself despite my excellent grades in the past. So my mother pulled me out of my high school, and she placed me in an private online high …show more content…
I was a whole semester behind and I made it all up quickly. With this new school I was able to move at my own pace and despite being behind I still finished the school year early. But my social life plummeted, something that I truly didn’t mind too much. I enjoyed my newfound freedom, and many of the stresses of high school no longer applied to me. The next year I switched schools again. I was placed in another online program called Hoosier Virtual Academy a K12 program which every state has. This program was more difficult than the last and I enjoyed the challenge. I did well here as well, though I didn’t enjoy how limiting this program was. While at the other school you had all your work for a semester that had to be completed by the end of the year this school had assignments that were due by the end of the week. It was much more of a controlled environment and I didn’t really like