What Does Writing Mean To Me Essay

They say that writing what you feel helps you to feel better, to let out the anger and sadness that is swishing away deep inside of you. However, I’m not sure that’s true. See, I feel a lot of different things, none of which are positive emotions and I have a hard time believing that writing is going to soften the blow from these negative emotions running rapidly through my mind.
First and foremost, I hate Michigan. Maybe because it’s that I feel Michigan has been nothing but cruel to me. Or maybe it’s because Michigan has forced me to grow in ways I was refusing to grow. Either way, I hate it here and I am beyond ready to close this chapter in of my life, whatever that requires me to do. However, I don’t necessarily have the energy or motivation to do what I need to do to close this chapter. Maybe sub-consciously I am scared. Or on the other hand, maybe I am just burnt out from my time here. I just want this never-ending series of unfortunate events of my life to be done with. …show more content…
I need to finish class, my thesis, save up money, plan, get rid of things, and establish fine lines and goodbyes with my “friends” and “mentors”. I am ready to move on and if there is one thing I learned in Michigan, it’s that nothing last forever. And that’s okay.
My time here has made me feel judged, odd, dismissed, irrelevant, dumb, ashamed, lonely, annoying, embarrassed, and ignored. Sure, I’ve felt all of these things before, feeling these things is a normal part of being human. However, I have never felt these things so deeply, so deep to the point where I believed them whole heartedly and hated myself for it. I thought and sometimes I still do think I am irrelevant and dumb. I wonder how I made it this far in life and feel so ashamed of myself that I want to remove myself from this planet. Those are the things I feel when I think about my time here. Sadness and