What Can You Ever Get The Feeling That God? Essay
Initially I’ll be frustrated and angry with God (imagine inner tantrums and kicking and screaming), but after some time, especially when it is reoccurring, I finally get the point; the point that I have absolutely no control over this life, and that God is intimately part of every single detail.
Can I tell you a story? It’s about me, which is a bit egocentric, I know. But mostly it’s about how God likes to surprise me and delight me with the little details. To save you the time of hearing my life’s story (archives to the side if you so choose to invest hours pondering the thoughts of a 16 year old me, hidden in my Tumblr timeline), I thought I’d start from two years ago.
I was on the verge of returning home to Australia, and I was completely frustrated with God. There is a lot God has promised me, and during my time in the USA, I finally saw the coming to life. Then BAM, like a door to the face, I was on a plane home. Of course, the stock standard questions and angst came to mind, and I passionately shared them with God.
‘WHAT ARE YOU DOING?’
‘YOU PROMISED THIS, RIGHT?’
‘I DO NOT LIKE THIS PLAN. CHANGE IT NOW PLEASE!’
Thankfully, God is not swayed by passive aggressive tendencies, and while he heard my voice, he did not…