Due to this fear and fixation later in the novel, her first thought constantly turns to the antagonist Garrett. Secondly, due to Maribel’s accident, Alma is constantly fixated on Maribel and is constantly overwhelmed with guilt and cannot forgive herself, which eventually leads to the separation of her family. Throughout the novel, Alma feels a sense of proving she can care for Maribel. First off, the text states, “I was the one holding the ladder. She was our perfect daughter and the next”(245). This sentence demonstrates how Alma burdens herself with the thought that she is the reason their daughter is the way she is. This burden weighs on her and her not being able to forgive herself eventually leads to the separation. Also, the text says, “My misguided idea that somehow by keeping all of this from him, I could prove that I was capable, I could prove that I could take care of our daughter even though I had failed her so terribly before”(243). This displays how Alma can’t forgive herself for this accident and due to her feeling to prove herself to her husband, she doesn’t tell him things that she wants
Due to this fear and fixation later in the novel, her first thought constantly turns to the antagonist Garrett. Secondly, due to Maribel’s accident, Alma is constantly fixated on Maribel and is constantly overwhelmed with guilt and cannot forgive herself, which eventually leads to the separation of her family. Throughout the novel, Alma feels a sense of proving she can care for Maribel. First off, the text states, “I was the one holding the ladder. She was our perfect daughter and the next”(245). This sentence demonstrates how Alma burdens herself with the thought that she is the reason their daughter is the way she is. This burden weighs on her and her not being able to forgive herself eventually leads to the separation. Also, the text says, “My misguided idea that somehow by keeping all of this from him, I could prove that I was capable, I could prove that I could take care of our daughter even though I had failed her so terribly before”(243). This displays how Alma can’t forgive herself for this accident and due to her feeling to prove herself to her husband, she doesn’t tell him things that she wants