Transitioning Into Junior High School

As a child, I would try to protect my mother from my father’s abuse. I would hide the knives, wake up during the night to their arguing, and I would try to help. I often wonder if the history of domestic violence is why I am very protective of my Mother. Thankfully, my siblings were much younger. Their memories are vague about regarding happened. However, part of the beauty of time is that often, healing emotional healing can take place, if a person allows.
Transitioning into Junior High School – Age 11 I was attending my junior high school orientation. Classes had not started. I recall my older step-sister coming into the auditorium with a grim expression on her face. I knew something awful had happen. She informed me that my father suffered a massive heart-attack.
He would remain in the hospital for approximately three to four weeks before passing away.
From that day forward life as I knew it would never be the same.
I experienced anxiety entering middle school. Emotionally I …show more content…
I recall questioning my sense of self, exploration, and identity during this stage. The first year of middle school, I do recall having issues with my grades in a couple of my classes. I am not sure if it were the classes, or the fact that I was possibly grieving the passing of my father. It could be the combination of both issues. I do recall becoming introverted and withdrawn during this time. I developed a desire to want to be alone. There were a few times I attempted to discuss with friends how I felt about my father’s death.
My friends did not understand my feelings about my father’s death. How could I expect them to understand? They became judgmental. I never opened with my friends again about his death. I slowly began to suppress whatever it was I was feeling at that time. Suppression of my feelings became my coping mechanism. It appeared to be working during my adolescence stage. I remember thinking during that stage that I was often