Quickly, before the sun rises.
Hannah rushes out to meet the black water, her body and board colliding recklessly onto the rough surf. I hesitate before leaping in after her. My stomach flips as the cold Pacific swallows me up, but even more striking is my mother's voice that begins to scream in my mind, freezing me in the water.
You're going to get swept out by the undertow! You're going to get eaten alive by a tiger shark! The coral is poisonous! Get one shard in your toe and you're going to have to chop it off-the entire thing! What are you thinking? Do you want to die? Come home!
"I'm going to be fine, this is fine, nothing's wrong, everything's okay," I chant in time to my thrumming heart, as my …show more content…
I can sneak out in the morning to surf dawn patrol and meet the eyes of strangers in malls or bars. However, I make these decisions fully aware, consciously, and carefully. Even with so many miles between us now, she is everywhere I go; she is the undercurrent pulling my thoughts, her thoughts, to the forefront of my mind. She slows down my recklessness, throwing caution and wisdom back into the whirlwind of my mind. Although at times her/my fears catch me, freezing me momentarily before I leap, she is me, and her voice steers me clear of jumps I realize I cannot