This world is fucked. Absolutely positively fucked. Humanity is doomed, and it's not because of what you think. It's not because of global warming or nuclear apocalypse. It's because of the daft and stupid ass people that inhabit this god forsaken planet. Nobody treats people with the slightest bit of respect. I guess that's why I'm writing this. This suicide note. I didn't really think it would end this soon. I thought maybe I'd make it through high school, maybe even college before I reached this point of dispair. It's not even my fault either. I tried my best. I tried to make the best out of what I was given (not much) but it just didn't work out. I'm fine with it, really. I know nobody will give a second thought to me or this note. They'll
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It eats you up. Consumes you, so all that's left is the darkness. It gets cold. So cold you get numb. You feel nothing. Nothing fazes you. You forget how to feel after a while. I've tried dealing with it for so long now. Struggled with it so much in middle school I'm surprised this rope wasn't around my neck years ago. Things brightened a bit at high school; I could almost catch a glimpse of light; but then it was ripped away from me as life's true colors reared their ugly head to me once more. It's the realizations that have truly pushed me over the edge. The realization that my family hates me, and only keeps me around as an outlet for their own grievances. That most are ashamed of me; afraid to be seen with me. I have no idea why my friends keep me around; maybe the constant negativity and bullying are their subtle pushes to kick me out of the group. I guess that would make sense. Who would want a depressed ugly asshole to hang out with them. My face repulses anybody else that might have the chance to know me. The realization that I will never be loved is another shot in the brains. I cannot Fathom someone who can oversee my flaws to appreciate me. All I am is one big flaw, so I guess it makes sense; why I've been alone my whole
It eats you up. Consumes you, so all that's left is the darkness. It gets cold. So cold you get numb. You feel nothing. Nothing fazes you. You forget how to feel after a while. I've tried dealing with it for so long now. Struggled with it so much in middle school I'm surprised this rope wasn't around my neck years ago. Things brightened a bit at high school; I could almost catch a glimpse of light; but then it was ripped away from me as life's true colors reared their ugly head to me once more. It's the realizations that have truly pushed me over the edge. The realization that my family hates me, and only keeps me around as an outlet for their own grievances. That most are ashamed of me; afraid to be seen with me. I have no idea why my friends keep me around; maybe the constant negativity and bullying are their subtle pushes to kick me out of the group. I guess that would make sense. Who would want a depressed ugly asshole to hang out with them. My face repulses anybody else that might have the chance to know me. The realization that I will never be loved is another shot in the brains. I cannot Fathom someone who can oversee my flaws to appreciate me. All I am is one big flaw, so I guess it makes sense; why I've been alone my whole