When I opened my mailbox last summer and saw an email reads “...you have been selected for a Huamei Academy Third Tier Scholarship for the 2016-2017 school year...”,I broke into tears. The email told me that I’ve failed to get the first tier scholarship, but more importantly, my tearsevoked by the email signified my failure on staying true to myself. I was awarded the first tier scholarship in ninth grade. I wasn’t even aware of the scholarship program in my school then, so when I entered tenth grade, I thought it would be even easier to get it again after knowing more about it and aiming for it as a goal. I couldn’t remember how many times I’ve volunteered;I signed up for basketball team although I wasn’t interested in it (I am now though);
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I learned nothingfrom the failure but the fact that whoever made the decision for scholarship had horrible judgments, so I made things up for the “lesson-I’ve-learned” paragraph. In my essay, I claimed that I’ve learned that school life is not a competition, and instead of pushing myself so hard for the money, I should do what I really like and enjoy my everyday school life. Did I really learn that? Not really. But that’s a good point, so who …show more content…
A lot of people cannot even get the scholarship! Stop showing off that you’ve got a scholarship.” Not wanting to irritate anyone, I started telling everyone that I don’t care about the scholarship anymore and I don’t even care if I get nothing. After saying all these great stuff, I still cried when I saw that “third.” The moment I broke into tears again, I realized my biggest failure is not about getting the scholarship, but failing to stay true to myself. I am not satisfied with only a second or third, and I probably never will be. That is the true voice in my heart. On the outside, however, I kept saying that I don’t care and it is not important to me anymore, and I even wrote a fake essay to “prove” that. Now I understand: it is ridiculous to give up myself to please
I learned nothingfrom the failure but the fact that whoever made the decision for scholarship had horrible judgments, so I made things up for the “lesson-I’ve-learned” paragraph. In my essay, I claimed that I’ve learned that school life is not a competition, and instead of pushing myself so hard for the money, I should do what I really like and enjoy my everyday school life. Did I really learn that? Not really. But that’s a good point, so who …show more content…
A lot of people cannot even get the scholarship! Stop showing off that you’ve got a scholarship.” Not wanting to irritate anyone, I started telling everyone that I don’t care about the scholarship anymore and I don’t even care if I get nothing. After saying all these great stuff, I still cried when I saw that “third.” The moment I broke into tears again, I realized my biggest failure is not about getting the scholarship, but failing to stay true to myself. I am not satisfied with only a second or third, and I probably never will be. That is the true voice in my heart. On the outside, however, I kept saying that I don’t care and it is not important to me anymore, and I even wrote a fake essay to “prove” that. Now I understand: it is ridiculous to give up myself to please