Repression
I tend to repress feelings of guilt over the death of my grandmother. Repression is portrayed as a “mechanism through which unacceptable desires, feelings, memories and thoughts are excluded from consciousness by being sent down deep into the unconscious” (Daniels, 2015). A year prior to my grandmother’s death, we had a situation and I stopped …show more content…
While in high school, I often got into trouble for being disruptive. I would justify my actions by saying I was board or being picked on. In reality though I went out of my way to be disruptive, so that my mom would have to come to the school. Growing up, I was always the independent child, so my mom never really had a lot to worry about and I began to feel forgotten. So, every time she would have to come to the school and talk to the vice principle concerning my behaviors, she would defend me and I would feel, as though she cared and remembered me, I wasn’t just one of her kids. I was Mia. This altered my development, because it made me come to terms with my maternal relationship. Before this, my mother thought that she was close to me, albeit after going to the numerous meetings, she found out that she was not. Consequently, we began to increasingly speak and I was able to express myself and let out some of the bottled up emotion I had. Since my parent’s divorce, this was the first time that I really talked to my mother. Accordingly, I began releasing all of my anger and hereinafter, for the first time in years, I was happy. In summary, though getting my mother’s attention was the original outcome; coming to a realization and building an open …show more content…
In my junior year of high school, I had a history teacher named Mr. Williams. He would do something called bonus points, where each student would pick a number and then who ever chose the correct number was able to answer the question first. I would always choose the number seven and attempt to answer the question. In the beginning of the school year I was extremely afraid of answering the question wrong. Although, when I would actually answer the question, it usually was correct; therefore, I would receive an extra point towards my quarter grade. This positive reinforcement of the extra points made me actually take a larger interest in the news and politics, so, throughout the year every time he would offer a bonus question I became well prepared to answer it. The points encouraged me to answer tons of questions, along with, impelling me to feel tremendously confident in my knowledge. This abated in shaping my ontogeny, because before this class I had always been nervous to answer questions aloud, notwithstanding, this class gave me the buoyancy to be outspoken and to let my voice be heard. In conclusion, though bonus points were just supposed to increase my grades, they turned out to be the ultimate incentive and goaded me to show my