In her writings she states, “ Later I realized that my immediate thought had been: But I did the ritual. I did it all. I did St. John the Divine, I did the chant in Latin, I did the Catholic priest and the Episcopal priest… and I did “ In paradisum deducant angeli.”(Didion 43) Didion refers to the funeral rites of her husband as a specific set of orders through which, should they be followed as concisely as possible, by some mystical force, she may feel some promotion of mental well-being for carrying out the necessary mandates. A similar context manifested in Didion’s mind while in the room off the reception area of the hospital, the idea that when placed upon the examination table of a higher being any daily passings, trials and tribulations seem but a speck in the grand scope of the universe’s happenings, as seen in her quote, “ a mote in the eye of God was the phrase that came to me in the room off the reception area”(Didion 15) Her husband’s funeral arrangements were just that, a passing phase within the expanses of history and the reels of the time. Along with Didion's perception of religion as a predetermined disposition of humanity, early on she begins to find there to be some dubiousness in the assumed clear cut line between the concepts of grief and faith. However, the line blurs and the two sides intertwine with one another, as seen in the quote, “ Credo in Deum. The first words of the Catholic catechism. Was it about faith or was it about grief? Were faith and grief the same thing?”(Didion 52) Joan Didion’s early recognition of the religious
In her writings she states, “ Later I realized that my immediate thought had been: But I did the ritual. I did it all. I did St. John the Divine, I did the chant in Latin, I did the Catholic priest and the Episcopal priest… and I did “ In paradisum deducant angeli.”(Didion 43) Didion refers to the funeral rites of her husband as a specific set of orders through which, should they be followed as concisely as possible, by some mystical force, she may feel some promotion of mental well-being for carrying out the necessary mandates. A similar context manifested in Didion’s mind while in the room off the reception area of the hospital, the idea that when placed upon the examination table of a higher being any daily passings, trials and tribulations seem but a speck in the grand scope of the universe’s happenings, as seen in her quote, “ a mote in the eye of God was the phrase that came to me in the room off the reception area”(Didion 15) Her husband’s funeral arrangements were just that, a passing phase within the expanses of history and the reels of the time. Along with Didion's perception of religion as a predetermined disposition of humanity, early on she begins to find there to be some dubiousness in the assumed clear cut line between the concepts of grief and faith. However, the line blurs and the two sides intertwine with one another, as seen in the quote, “ Credo in Deum. The first words of the Catholic catechism. Was it about faith or was it about grief? Were faith and grief the same thing?”(Didion 52) Joan Didion’s early recognition of the religious