The Theme Of Transition In Drown, By Junot Diaz

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The homecoming of Beto, an old best friend, makes the narrator hesitant to reconnect. The narrators mother is surprised by this, but she doesn 't know about the true means of their relationship. The prospective reunion of the two stirs up memories of unsettling sexual encounters. In “Drown”, Junot Diaz tells a story of the blurred lines of attraction and the journey of a man revealing his homosexuality. Over the course of the story, the narrator slowly becomes aware of his true self. The use of windows symbolizes a passage through the narrators journey of fear, allowing him to find hope, and ultimately leading to the truth. First, the narrator uses the window as a passage, bringing him closer to the truth of his sexuality through fear. …show more content…
For example, he gets another reminder to make sure the windows are locked from his mother and states that “with the air conditioner on we never open the windows but I go through the routine anyway” (507). Undeterred by the topic of his sexuality being a closed subject in the household, he goes through his routine anyway. It is the routine of constantly fighting to cover his true sexuality. In addition, he speaks about the past and the way him and Beto “were raging then, crazy the way we stole, broke windows, the way we pissed on people 's steps and then challenged them to come out and stop us” (504). The breaking of the windows symbolizes the rebellion the narrator and Beto both took part in, showing that together they were unstoppable. It didn 't matter to either of them what everyone thought about their relationship. He wasn 't afraid of letting the sexual encounter with Beto happen, he was afraid of believing it was true. However, their sexual encounters excited him and he commences to accept it. He refers to Beto as a “pato” or gay man, and yet still manages to talk about him in admiration. While Beto is walking through that window and leaving the nest, the narrator is left behind and stuck in his dark secret. He envied the way Beto was living his life the way he wanted, despite his sexuality. In an attempt to reconnect with Beto the narrator says “I pass by his apartment but the windows are dark; I put my ear to the busted-up door and hear only the familiar hum of the air conditioner” (505). Unfortunately, Beto was nowhere to be found, all that was left was a dark window. He acknowledges that the closed dark window is keeping them apart. Even though he resisted visiting Beto he does anyway. This is the breaking moment of the narrators acknowledgment of his true sexuality. The bridge between them is blocked because the narrator refuses to

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