Arthur Schopenhauer affirmed the emotion I felt when he proclaimed “the greatest achievements of the human mind are generally received with distrust.” (Schopenhauer, 2016) I had formed an incredibly strong bond with my grandmother and looked to her for knowledge, guidance, and comfort my entire life. There was a particular instance one sultry summer day in southern Virginia that changed everything I had ever felt. It held a significance in my ability to establish trust and to construct healthy relationships in the future. Every single ounce of emotion and feeling that had prospered in my relationship with her was shattered in a minuscule moment. My grandmother 's age had been ripening for quite some time, while the deterioration of her
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It was then that I began to sever the bond that had attached us for so many years. I not only found myself in isolation from my grandmother but from everyone. Suddenly I felt as if no one was who they professed to be and that I had to guard my heart with a razor wire fence in order to never feel that gnawing pain that took years to withdraw from. I utilized this time in seclusion to reflect, it was hard to wrap my brain around what could make anyone, but most importantly my grandmother, be so malicious and despicable. I took, this time, to reminisce on every aspect of my relationship with her be it good or bad. Until I finally realized one day that this solitude that I had so hastily sought, had shined a light on all of the horrible thoughts, and the sharpening sound of the painful words that I had overheard her speak. I finally began to accept her for who she was, the mind can be a dark, evil place and it wasn’t, in fact, her heart that had chosen to be so unkind but her mind that was vanishing from what it had always been. The person that hurt me so deeply that day was not the same person that had cradled me, rocked me, kissed my boo-boos and taught me so many valuable lessons about life. She was the same person all along, her heart never left the way that …show more content…
The events that took place during her downhill mental decline, I felt skepticism and the inability to trust, the necessity for confinement, and how even in my darkest days I would once again find my way back to feeling delighted. When faced with the distressing words that my grandmother expressed, I was undoubtedly left learning what it felt to no longer trust her and to feel skeptical of the bond we had. The damage that she caused me to feel led me to pursue solitude and confine myself in order to reflect. Utilizing the time that I had secluded from her encouraged me to follow my journey back to serenity, delight, and mental clarity once again. One of the most incredible accomplishments that my own human mind has been able to triumph from was learned through
It was then that I began to sever the bond that had attached us for so many years. I not only found myself in isolation from my grandmother but from everyone. Suddenly I felt as if no one was who they professed to be and that I had to guard my heart with a razor wire fence in order to never feel that gnawing pain that took years to withdraw from. I utilized this time in seclusion to reflect, it was hard to wrap my brain around what could make anyone, but most importantly my grandmother, be so malicious and despicable. I took, this time, to reminisce on every aspect of my relationship with her be it good or bad. Until I finally realized one day that this solitude that I had so hastily sought, had shined a light on all of the horrible thoughts, and the sharpening sound of the painful words that I had overheard her speak. I finally began to accept her for who she was, the mind can be a dark, evil place and it wasn’t, in fact, her heart that had chosen to be so unkind but her mind that was vanishing from what it had always been. The person that hurt me so deeply that day was not the same person that had cradled me, rocked me, kissed my boo-boos and taught me so many valuable lessons about life. She was the same person all along, her heart never left the way that …show more content…
The events that took place during her downhill mental decline, I felt skepticism and the inability to trust, the necessity for confinement, and how even in my darkest days I would once again find my way back to feeling delighted. When faced with the distressing words that my grandmother expressed, I was undoubtedly left learning what it felt to no longer trust her and to feel skeptical of the bond we had. The damage that she caused me to feel led me to pursue solitude and confine myself in order to reflect. Utilizing the time that I had secluded from her encouraged me to follow my journey back to serenity, delight, and mental clarity once again. One of the most incredible accomplishments that my own human mind has been able to triumph from was learned through