Growing up with four siblings we had an established hierarchy; the oldest child made the rules, both middle children were the reason there are rules, and the rules didn’t apply to the youngest. I was cushioned and protected from responsibility with no need to be mature. However as my siblings graduated, the young, carefree girl I used to be seemed harder to find.
When I became aware of this evolution I was unnerved by the changes that I had unknowingly experienced. The real world hardened me, and when I reflect on the innocent, unworldly person I used to be it leaves me feeling unsettled. Of course, this was all part of growing up: you read about in books, you see it in movies, and hear about it in music. But then it happens to you. I realized my character had become quieter, realistic, and responsible versus the extroverted, troublemaker I used to