She feels like she does not know where she is going. She is wondering within herself and it makes her feel lonely to not feel like apart of something. Earlier on it was stated that she is being distanced from hullaballoo that is in New York. It is like she has a whole filled with emptiness and does not know how to handle what she is going through inside. She has no sense of what she is doing with herself because she is lost and does not know how to find herself through the obstacles. Therefore, this quote illustrates how she is starting to see signs within that she is not
