The Pint People may be actually giving me all they have, but to my 10-Gallon self, it feels like, "Is this all you got?!" I cannot change anyone or anything, but what I can control is with whom I wish to spend my energy and time. I must let go of the Pints so that I can make room for other 10-Gallon people to enter my life. Duh! I feel like I am in the midst of cleaning out my closet so I can make room for a whole new wardrobe. Yes!
When I was in college I had a very close friend. Throughout our friendship, there were many times when this person would just "disappear" or "check out". I would not hear from them and no matter how many phone messages I would leave, it was to no avail. Later I would find out that they had been going through a rough time and just went into some kind of "shell", or self-imposed isolation. I would often feel very bad about this and wondered why they didn't reach out to me or tell me. I would have been …show more content…
Right now they are living out of the country, but said they will be returning to the States sometime within the next year. They said they would contact me at that point and maybe we could get together. Uh-huh. That remains to be seen. Not because I don't believe that they will follow through, but because I'm not so sure I want to see them. But like the situation with my mother, I will take it one day at a time. I'm not going to obsess about what might or might not be. I did what I had to do and said what I had to say. The rest will take care of itself. I can let go and move on