My childhood was fairly hard and most would not believe everything that has been going on in my life because I often smile to keep from crying. A lot of my emotions do not be shown to the outside world or to anyone for that matter. I keep everything to myself and do not convey my life story to anyone. I feel as if people will judge the way that I have …show more content…
Everyone has to go thru a struggle to get to where they need to be in life and I guess she was also my struggle. My grandmother and my father often told me that God would not put more on someone that they cannot bear and he gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. That one choice that she made to become an addict gave me a very clear outlook on life. It also has molded me in a way I do not believe would have if she did not. I have become self-determined. I try not to hang around the crowds that show bad habits early. It is a lot of people my age that party, smoke and drinks and we are teenagers and I feel that’s only going to lead to a big problems as we get older. Don’t get me wrong I go out, have fun and party, I am not judging anyone and maybe some can control it, like myself, but that is what laid my family to bigger problems. As they realized the alcohol or marijuana wasn’t giving them the “high” that they no longer desired, they moved to bigger but yet worse