The pain of loss
Death is a scary word for most people. My aunt was one of the greatest women I had ever met. So I questioned God daily. Why does he let such bad things happen to such good people? Many people don’t understand what it feels like to lose someone. On October 18, 2015 I finally did. It all started around May of 2015. I went to visit my aunt Ladonna after church Sunday morning. My family and I ate lunch with her like normal. Ladonna was laughing and smiling just like usual. A couple of weeks later, I went to see her again and I knew something was not right. She wasn’t eating very much. She would open a can of pears and only eat about three or four. I remember asking, “Ladonna, are you sure nothing is wrong?”
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She was so frail she couldn’t get out of bed without someone helping her. She also got incredibly skinny. I could pick her up in my arms and hold her like a baby. She turned very white like a ghost. It was unnatural to see her so sick after seeing her be very energetic all these years. I would stay up all night just to watch her sleep. She looked so peaceful. It made me feel a little better knowing just for an hour or two she wasn’t in pain. Through the night, she would wake up and start throwing up yellow liquid. All I could do to help was hold her head and try to ease the pain. It was without a doubt the hardest thing I ever had to do. I had to sit there and watch my aunt get sicker with each passing …show more content…
I wasn’t with her as much as I usually was but I took care of her every Friday to Sunday until her passing. With each month, her condition worsened. October came around and I knew that this was it. It was a Sunday afternoon so I had to go home to make it to school on Monday. As I was leaving I said, “I love you and I’ll see you later.” She was so sick all she did was knod her head. I knew what she wanted to say. That night, October 18, I lost my beautiful aunt Ladonna to cancer.
After she passed away, my family and I went through a very rough time. Although I miss her greatly everyday, I think about her favorite bible verse and it helps ease the pain of missing her. “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have kept the faith”. 2 Timothy 4:7. She is a daily reminder to live life to the fullest because you only get one, so don’t waste it. She makes me want to be a better person. She made this world a better place. It is my goal to keep doing that and living up to her
Death is a scary word for most people. My aunt was one of the greatest women I had ever met. So I questioned God daily. Why does he let such bad things happen to such good people? Many people don’t understand what it feels like to lose someone. On October 18, 2015 I finally did. It all started around May of 2015. I went to visit my aunt Ladonna after church Sunday morning. My family and I ate lunch with her like normal. Ladonna was laughing and smiling just like usual. A couple of weeks later, I went to see her again and I knew something was not right. She wasn’t eating very much. She would open a can of pears and only eat about three or four. I remember asking, “Ladonna, are you sure nothing is wrong?”
“I’m sure honey,” …show more content…
She was so frail she couldn’t get out of bed without someone helping her. She also got incredibly skinny. I could pick her up in my arms and hold her like a baby. She turned very white like a ghost. It was unnatural to see her so sick after seeing her be very energetic all these years. I would stay up all night just to watch her sleep. She looked so peaceful. It made me feel a little better knowing just for an hour or two she wasn’t in pain. Through the night, she would wake up and start throwing up yellow liquid. All I could do to help was hold her head and try to ease the pain. It was without a doubt the hardest thing I ever had to do. I had to sit there and watch my aunt get sicker with each passing …show more content…
I wasn’t with her as much as I usually was but I took care of her every Friday to Sunday until her passing. With each month, her condition worsened. October came around and I knew that this was it. It was a Sunday afternoon so I had to go home to make it to school on Monday. As I was leaving I said, “I love you and I’ll see you later.” She was so sick all she did was knod her head. I knew what she wanted to say. That night, October 18, I lost my beautiful aunt Ladonna to cancer.
After she passed away, my family and I went through a very rough time. Although I miss her greatly everyday, I think about her favorite bible verse and it helps ease the pain of missing her. “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have kept the faith”. 2 Timothy 4:7. She is a daily reminder to live life to the fullest because you only get one, so don’t waste it. She makes me want to be a better person. She made this world a better place. It is my goal to keep doing that and living up to her