My Autobiographical Essay

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I turn on my laptop and login to PiratesNet. I click on the blue, underlined link titled “Transcript/Grades” and select the appropriate name of my college, MJC. The link says the transcript was unofficial, but that didn’t matter to me. I just wanted to know how my grades are doing so far. As I wait patiently for the page to load, I notices something was off. My grades were doing poorly even though I’ve been working my butt off in all my classes. How could I let this happen? Why am I doing so poorly if I’m doing all the work? What am I doing wrong? Am I not working hard enough? What am I supposed to do now? Should I quit or continue to try harder? So many thoughts came to my head and it was overwhelming for me to handle. I closed my laptop and …show more content…
They look so happy and proud of themselves for achieving something like that in their college career. Then there’s me, a dumb college student who’s barely passing her classes and not working hard enough like the others. I was angry, disappointed, and ashamed of myself. I was so ashamed that I would often lie to anyone who asks how I’m doing at school. That’s how bad it was for me. I didn’t want to look like a miserable person who doesn’t know what to do in life. I just wanted to fit in and be like all the rest, dedicated and …show more content…
One of my favorite methods that I find the most helpful is the one shown in chapter 9 on page 244. Writing down my negative thoughts on paper, or as the author calls it “self-criticism,” and then turning them into rational responses, also called “self-defense,” will help me alter my way of thinking into a positive one. Once I master the ability to think positively in a more natural way, it will hopefully boost my self-esteem and prevent me from comparing myself to my peers or try to live up to my parents’ standards. To quote David D. Burns, “In order to maintain such improvement, [one] will obviously need to make a consistent effort to change [their] thinking patterns over a period of time so [they] can overcome [their] bad habit of spinning an intricate mental web and getting trapped in it” (240). I’m not going to lie, I still struggle to this day with self-esteem and I’m almost certain that a good handful of others are as well, but having enough dedication into my work is what will get me far. Just sitting there and constantly think on all the negativity that’s going on around me won’t help me become a better person. Getting the job done is what helped others from getting to their destination and I intend on following in their

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