The monologue that I wrote and performed was inspired by two different poems both possessing the theme of anxiety. The first poem was by Patrick Roche The Perfect Panic Attack and the second Social Anxiety Disorder by Sabrina Leira. In the first poem Patrick goes through instructions on how to have the perfect panic attack and recounts different features that would be included when someone does have a panic attack. ‘Find a trigger. A job interview, the claustrophobia of mass transit, deciding what to have for dinner. It will help if you have a chronic condition: Severe depression, an anxiety disorder, asthma. This is ideal, but may not be possible for everyone.’ (Roche, P. 2015). The poem by Sabrina talks about what social anxiety means to
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2016). I came across these spoken word poems when looking for activist art and felt like l connected with what they were saying because as a child I was diagnosed with anxiety myself. I felt like anxiety treated me the same so I could relate deeply to the spoken word poetry that I had heard. I decided to look at my own experiences with anxiety and how it affected my life but also how my anxiety came to be. When I started to think about how anxiety had influenced my life I realised my quietness stems from my anxiety. I believe that my quietness makes up a big part of who I am and I wanted to look deeper into this as it is a part of my personality and my character …show more content…
I thought about the time and age when my anxiety had first developed and soon noticed it was around the time I was only living with my father. Throughout my childhood my father commonly shouted at me for the most trivial of things and didn’t allow me to explain myself or to have my own opinion on the subject matter. Whenever I did try to speak up I would be afraid and so many thoughts would start racing through my head and I would feel like I was about to have a panic attack. This is where I felt like I related to Patrick Roche’s The Perfect Panic Attack as I started to feel the feelings he had described. This restrain on my opinion soon advanced into finding it difficult talking to people as I would feel that same feeling of anxiety when trying to have a voice against my father. I address this in my monologue as I say ‘I knew the answer and yet I struggle to get the words out. But why is that?’ I then pause and go straight into my father shouting ‘BETHANY!! BETHANY COME HERE
2016). I came across these spoken word poems when looking for activist art and felt like l connected with what they were saying because as a child I was diagnosed with anxiety myself. I felt like anxiety treated me the same so I could relate deeply to the spoken word poetry that I had heard. I decided to look at my own experiences with anxiety and how it affected my life but also how my anxiety came to be. When I started to think about how anxiety had influenced my life I realised my quietness stems from my anxiety. I believe that my quietness makes up a big part of who I am and I wanted to look deeper into this as it is a part of my personality and my character …show more content…
I thought about the time and age when my anxiety had first developed and soon noticed it was around the time I was only living with my father. Throughout my childhood my father commonly shouted at me for the most trivial of things and didn’t allow me to explain myself or to have my own opinion on the subject matter. Whenever I did try to speak up I would be afraid and so many thoughts would start racing through my head and I would feel like I was about to have a panic attack. This is where I felt like I related to Patrick Roche’s The Perfect Panic Attack as I started to feel the feelings he had described. This restrain on my opinion soon advanced into finding it difficult talking to people as I would feel that same feeling of anxiety when trying to have a voice against my father. I address this in my monologue as I say ‘I knew the answer and yet I struggle to get the words out. But why is that?’ I then pause and go straight into my father shouting ‘BETHANY!! BETHANY COME HERE