Personal Narrative: The Lord Giveth

I have had a lot of life altering experiences that have made me come to the decision of going deeper with God. Determining which one to write about has proven to be more difficult than I realized. But here goes. The saying the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away has always been on my mind though season after season in my life starting when I was 16 with the birth of my first child Brittany Nicole she was born with potters syndrome and with my family around she died 2 days later in my arms. I was so young myself but still had that nurturing side of me I couldn’t replace with nothing else, then also a piece of me died with her. I knew she went to heaven but missed her greatly. I had 2 more children after her before I was 20 but being that …show more content…
Well I said to myself I’m not losing another child this one is mine and I loved him with all my heart. When he was just 4 months old in 2001 I met Tracy a very good man and great daddy but had a little history that hindered being able to find work so we decided to leave Texas and come to Colorado . Ended up going to a shelter in 2002 but while we were there got caught up with some bad people, Tracy got on some drugs and cps took Jude away at 3.I fought to get him back in Colorado well in the meantime I got pregnant with Zane and cps wanted to get involved so my attorney suggested that Tracy and I go back to Texas and let my mom and dad get him than I could get him back. But I would have to give up my rights as a parent but no problem grandparents have first chance .I did that and as hard as it was to leave him, I was assured I would get my son back in just a few months .I cried my eyes out but reluctantly left got the papers to give up my rights and signed, Well they lied to me, when you’re in different states somebody else can adopt and they did I have never seen him …show more content…
So with another son on the way and extremely excited swore that would never happen again. Had Zane in 2004 Tracy and I were married and very happy things were looking up. Zane was perfect and I nursed him we were inseparable. Wanted to add to our family so in 20005 got pregnant with Nickelei, Early on in the pregnancy found out he had downs syndrome, what a shock, pleas Lord let him be healthy and he was very healthy and happy, to us he was a perfect baby boy we loved him so much brought so much joy in our life, Well I wasn’t getting any younger and Tracy wanted a baby girl a daughter to complete our family. I had Seyla in 2007 a beautiful little girl Seyla Rain our family was complete, Tracy was the doting father loved hid children greatly and had gotten a good job as a steel worker and me very busy but happy with a wonderful family finally. When Seyla was just 4 month’s old Nickelei ! and a half and Zane 3 I picked up Tracy from working out state for 2 weeks on a big job and we were all happy to be together , that was Friday . Saturday has one of our best days ever went to our neighbors 3 year old birthday party with blow up jungle gyms it was a great