I had looked up all of the sudden and stared into my mom’s lifeless eyes and began to hysterically sob because I realized for the first time that I would never get to see her or talk to her or lay with her or hug her ever again. The only thought on my mind was that the rest of my life was a long time to wait until I could see her again. I had never in my short life been caught so off guard by a single event. I didn’t ever think that she would perish from her illness because from my perspective, she would always have been with me until I was gray and old.
Her death threw my whole life off-kilter. I mourned her passing and celebrated her life while continuing to go to school and keeping my grades up. She had been in the hospital for the last month of her life so there were quite a few days that I had taken off of school in order to stay by her side in the off chance that she took a turn for the worst. After the funeral I started going back to school on a regular basis and made up all of the work that I had missed. Although the transition was tumultuous I was able to successfully catch up in all of my