The Influence Of My Depression

Before I had found someone who sparked me back to life I was a very sad and lonely person. I had no motivation to do anything, I couldn 't find the strength to do anything. I was very depressed and I had been that way for a very long time. I had realized this when I was sixteen, I had a few close friends who I could definitely lean on and talk to and let know what was going on, but I never went into depth of how bad my depression really was. I only scratched the surface. I was surrounded by people who loved me and supported me but it just wasn 't right. After a death of my grandma and my grandpa 's declining health I sought new friends and found someone who lit a fire inside my heart
In the beginning of 2015 I had lost my grandma on my mom 's side, she was a very important person in my life so it had a very negative effect on me. About three months later my grandpa on my dad …show more content…
I was still not all put back together but I was getting there. One day he began talking about our future together, he brought up me going to school so we both can be better off in the years to come, he as well said He 'd apply at a University to get his bachelor 's degree but I wasn 't so sure yet. I knew I wanted to go to school but I wasn 't sure of myself I was worried that everything would hit me all over again and I would be just as bad as before I met him, I wanted to wait another year before coming back to school to make sure I was okay but he pushed me into applying and attending. I knew I could do it but in the back of my mind was doubt. I knew that no matter what I love him, and I want to live the life that I 've always known I can have a little more education in my life, I knew with him by my side everything would be fine and no matter what the outcome will be great, I was finally given the opportunity to finally start preparing myself for life and go about it the right