Personal Narrative: Sexual Identity

Life is full of mystery, and I have for sure seen it. Throughout my life, I always knew I was different. However, I did not know I was different in one way. That is through my sexuality I have found out. From the very beginning of my life, I felt comfortable to say I was always attracted to girls. Some had pretty hair, to beautiful eyes. Which is common for a boy like me to notice with the opposite sex. I always fell for ones who were caring and smart. Ones that I absolutely fell for sadly already had a boyfriend I found out. I always told myself the right one would come, that is until middle school.
In middle school, I always looked for a great girl. However, I noticed myself looking at guys to in a way. There is no way to exactly describe …show more content…
Crushing on girls for a while, but then crushing on a guy for a while. There was only one girl I can recall I crushed on her for more than a month or so. Senior year, there was two guys that I crushed on for the same amount of time. By this point in my life, I was more confused as to who I like. Do I like guys more or girls? Why was it such a difficult question? I wanted to tell people, but I guess I wanted to learn more about myself still to discover what my sexual identity could be.
College was the breaking point for that. More crushes came along with both sexes. At this point, I nearly confirmed to myself that I was different. To even go further, I kissed a guy for the first time and may I say I was completely nervous. It was all right, but I could tell nothing more would come out of it. By that, I mean relationship. However, the kiss did confirm that I wouldn’t care if it’s a guy or girl. I like either sex. I have never kissed a girl, but I still find them attractive, even though now it seems I’m crushing more on men. Some crushes on girls come up here and there occasionally …show more content…
My roommate, my sister, and some of my friends know, but I was nervous of telling anyone else. I told my counselor and she asked if my parents know. I’m like no, because I don’t know what to even to tell them or describe my feelings. She asked if I was nervous or their reaction in like they would not support me. I told her however that my parents always said they would love me and my sister no matter what. Doesn’t matter what our sexual orientation was, they always told us they would love us and support us. I just want to give them more of a clear answer of what my sexual orientation