The environment at the office felt very cold, I was sent to work in a room in the back and no one really contacted me. I was greatly confused because the other intern there on another day of the week always had something to do. Once a day I always asked if they needed anything and they said no. The only time I was asked to do anything was to buy a magazine or to deliver items to designers. Eventually I made a poor decision and gave up, I was at a loss on what to do. When observing the environment, I saw that no one really ever talked to each other. Everyone always had headphones in and just sat at their cubicles. I sometimes also had this feeling of distance working at Calvin, where everyone is always at their desks not really interacting. No one seemed happy there and everyone always looked stress, from an outside perspective it seems like an unfulfilling profession. Every day I set in a room by myself, with white walls and white chairs. It felt so isolating and some days led to ruminating thoughts all day long. I had to find healthy ways to cope with being in the room or else I would have anxiety for nine hours of a day. The day before the internship I went to go deliver a package. I was given everything in paper bags and it was down-pouring outside. When I was so very close to the drop off site, the bags entirely fell on the ground and all of the products ruined. I was in a panic and did not know …show more content…
They told me they had to give me an evaluation on my performance. I had a few meetings about the dropped package and apologized several times because I did realize the mistake I made and they did mention that again. They explained to me that they felt I was careless throughout the entire internship. I was really confused because they never gave me anything to do so I did not know what I could have been careless about. I did ask why they did not give me anything to do and they said it is because on the first three weeks of the internship I made mistakes in my work. I told them I wish they had told me this earlier on and gave me feedback because I would have happily learned how to fix these mistakes. They told me they did not have time to tell me how to fix my mistakes because I should have already known how to do everything. It made me realize maybe I cannot just jump into a career where I do not know much about. I thought that I could learn on the site but I was ill prepared to do so. As they were explaining this to me, I could tell they were nervous and felt bad and I did explain I take this as nothing more but constructive criticism and I appreciate their time trying to help me. They told me this was not an attack on my person and I did not think it was, at the end of the day we are all human and humans make mistakes. I know they are kind people and they are just trying to do their