Personal Narrative: Performance Anxiety

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If you were to ask me what the scariest part about having anxiety is, my answer to you would be how little is known about it. Mental health is such a feared thing to talk about, yet talking and spreading awareness is the only way to end the stigma.

I have severe “performance anxiety” as my doctor called it, it 's no longer an everyday thing but for a long time it was, it started as being anxious before soccer games or track meets, I mean, nerves is something all athletes face, it 's part of the sport, but something about the way my stomach turned and the way my cereal repulsed me the morning of a big game, that made me realize it was a lot more than just a little pre-game stress.
It took me a long time to realize; realize that something was wrong. It was hard to learn how to cope and how to try and get others to understand. Isn’t that silly? I had to figure out how to make someone else understand a struggle I was going through, because they had it set in their mind that I was just overthinking.
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But the reality is, it made me sickly anxious in any setting that was out of my comfort zone. The harsh truth to it is, this included things I was excited for; I couldn 't do it, because I would get too scared that something would go wrong or that I would get my hopes up and be

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