He constantly wishes that he were dead, and often feels “crumby”. These pains, all of which he feels on his way home from escaping Pency, his “phony” prep school, guide him through New York city and although he experiences quite the most adventurous of endeavors, his pain holds him back from doing all he could. Multiple times throughout the novel, he attempts fruitlessly to call up his old friend Jane, who of which he seems to share a bit of a one sided love connection with. When walking back from the bar to his hotel, he stops a moment to sit in a chair in the lobby, and begins to think about her. “All of a sudden, on my way out to the lobby, I got old Jane Gallagher on the brain again. I got her on, and I couldn’t get her off.” (76). This time in the lobby was one of many times he had thought about calling Jane, but his burdening feeling prevented him from doing so. He remembered her as the girl who was broken and scarred, much like a counterpart of his own self, and he desired to live among that
He constantly wishes that he were dead, and often feels “crumby”. These pains, all of which he feels on his way home from escaping Pency, his “phony” prep school, guide him through New York city and although he experiences quite the most adventurous of endeavors, his pain holds him back from doing all he could. Multiple times throughout the novel, he attempts fruitlessly to call up his old friend Jane, who of which he seems to share a bit of a one sided love connection with. When walking back from the bar to his hotel, he stops a moment to sit in a chair in the lobby, and begins to think about her. “All of a sudden, on my way out to the lobby, I got old Jane Gallagher on the brain again. I got her on, and I couldn’t get her off.” (76). This time in the lobby was one of many times he had thought about calling Jane, but his burdening feeling prevented him from doing so. He remembered her as the girl who was broken and scarred, much like a counterpart of his own self, and he desired to live among that