“This is Izzy, so-and-so’s girlfriend.” For so long that was what defined my identity. My relationship status. I’m pretty sure there are some people out there that wouldn’t know who I was until my connection to a certain male was entered into the conversation. My actions, the way I treated others, and the value I saw in myself was a direct correlation to whether I was in a relationship or if I was single. Relationships were my idols and I was a worshipper.
It is so amazing how God will sometimes use your very sin, your idols, to draw you to Himself. The day was Easter Sunday and I was laying in my bed mourning a broken heart. My latest idol had once again been unable to fill the vast abyss in my heart. A very close friend of mine called me …show more content…
If I did not believe in an organized religion, there were no rules, no sin to feel convicted about, and I was free to live my life the way I saw fit. As you can imagine this led down a very dark and twisted path. My life was a string of relationships or attempts at relationships. My personality, goals, and dreams changing with each person. I had no sense of self. Worst of all at the end of each relationship I felt utterly worthless. "Why doesn’t he want me? Why am I not enough? Who am I?” That last question was always the most haunting. Without a human being to cling to and tell me who I should be in order to please them, I did not know who I was. This happened in friendships as well. I would become like the person I was with at the moment, with small traces of my own persona but more of a reflection of those I was surrounded …show more content…
I received my first copy of the Word of God and was told about a young adults small group I should join. I cannot and will not sit here and tell you that life has been perfect since that day. My walk has not been perfect in any way. I stumble, I doubt, I wrestle with sin, but by His grace he is sanctifying my sinful heart daily. I still consider myself a baby in the faith and by His grace He is guiding me as I grow in faith and wisdom. He has blessed me with amazing sisters in Christ to steward me while keeping me accountable and an amazing mentor to disciple me. I am finding myself in Christ and now know the true meaning of peace. All by His
It is so amazing how God will sometimes use your very sin, your idols, to draw you to Himself. The day was Easter Sunday and I was laying in my bed mourning a broken heart. My latest idol had once again been unable to fill the vast abyss in my heart. A very close friend of mine called me …show more content…
If I did not believe in an organized religion, there were no rules, no sin to feel convicted about, and I was free to live my life the way I saw fit. As you can imagine this led down a very dark and twisted path. My life was a string of relationships or attempts at relationships. My personality, goals, and dreams changing with each person. I had no sense of self. Worst of all at the end of each relationship I felt utterly worthless. "Why doesn’t he want me? Why am I not enough? Who am I?” That last question was always the most haunting. Without a human being to cling to and tell me who I should be in order to please them, I did not know who I was. This happened in friendships as well. I would become like the person I was with at the moment, with small traces of my own persona but more of a reflection of those I was surrounded …show more content…
I received my first copy of the Word of God and was told about a young adults small group I should join. I cannot and will not sit here and tell you that life has been perfect since that day. My walk has not been perfect in any way. I stumble, I doubt, I wrestle with sin, but by His grace he is sanctifying my sinful heart daily. I still consider myself a baby in the faith and by His grace He is guiding me as I grow in faith and wisdom. He has blessed me with amazing sisters in Christ to steward me while keeping me accountable and an amazing mentor to disciple me. I am finding myself in Christ and now know the true meaning of peace. All by His