Personal Narrative: Call Me

Over the past few years, enjoying my free time has been a struggle of mine and after having class discussions I learned many of my classmates had the same issue. Personally I did not feel this way much of my freshmen year, but certainly junior year and a little bit of my sophomore year I felt extreme guilt for enjoying myself and relaxing for just a second. The guilt combined with fear that unwinding for just a second would send my GPA down the drain. For instance, one time around a month ago I was watching the movie Call Me by Your Name and I was so stressed about studying during the film, that I do not remember a portion of the movie. I would be panicking when I watched TV or scrolled through instagram for too long. A little voice in my head would be whispering, “you should be doing something productive” or “really you are going to watch TV when you could be studying?” All of these things fused together to stress me out and take me away from the things I love, my passions. …show more content…
However, now I rarely do get to sit on the couch and watch a couple of episodes of TV or a movie because I am so afraid that I’m wasting time that I could use to help me get into a good college. Another passion of mine is video editing, which takes many hours to do, therefore I have had to cut it out of my life. Cutting these passions out of my life has made me significantly upset and I feel like I’m losing touch with that side of myself, because I don’t get to spend much time developing my passions. After recent events in Parkland and in our own school, I’ve realized just how precious life is and want to strive to enjoy my free time. I want to lay across my couch watching movies for hours, or work on and maybe finish one of my