Today is my one-year anniversary of coming home from Afghanistan, but I am not happy. How can I celebrate my life in a time like this? I cannot think about my life when I know other families are crying because their loved ones did not come home. What are those families doing today? Shouldn’t we be remembering the fallen soldiers? Why should I sit here and be happy when I know my friends are sitting six feet below the earth’s surface.
However, people keep congratulating me on the successful tour, you think killing people and watching people be killed is successful? No, they do not understand the word success and they do not understand me. Why they can’t leave me alone and stop asking me to tell them stories about overseas is beyond my knowledge. I am hurting and they are making me suffer more.
I would give it all away if I knew it was going to be this way. Ever since my return, I cannot function normally and I am having reoccurring nightmares, causing me to get no sleep. Now the nightmare always starts the same, it is Frank, Nathan, Sarah and I patrolling the base border when …show more content…
He expressed to me that he was kept hearing voices in his head of the soldiers who died that day, and he also told me about the recurring nightmares of that time as well. His hallucinations seem to be real to him, but they are just a figment of this imagination, because he is no longer in the war. He is also expressing some restricted emotional expression, because he is only able to feel one emotion, which is pain. That is the only emotion that makes him feel alive. Calvin is also showing signs of depression; he no longer does what he use to enjoy doing, he sometimes comes off as a completely new person to his friends and family, and he is unable to mourn the loss of his friends. He is unable to handle his past, meaning he is unable to move
However, people keep congratulating me on the successful tour, you think killing people and watching people be killed is successful? No, they do not understand the word success and they do not understand me. Why they can’t leave me alone and stop asking me to tell them stories about overseas is beyond my knowledge. I am hurting and they are making me suffer more.
I would give it all away if I knew it was going to be this way. Ever since my return, I cannot function normally and I am having reoccurring nightmares, causing me to get no sleep. Now the nightmare always starts the same, it is Frank, Nathan, Sarah and I patrolling the base border when …show more content…
He expressed to me that he was kept hearing voices in his head of the soldiers who died that day, and he also told me about the recurring nightmares of that time as well. His hallucinations seem to be real to him, but they are just a figment of this imagination, because he is no longer in the war. He is also expressing some restricted emotional expression, because he is only able to feel one emotion, which is pain. That is the only emotion that makes him feel alive. Calvin is also showing signs of depression; he no longer does what he use to enjoy doing, he sometimes comes off as a completely new person to his friends and family, and he is unable to mourn the loss of his friends. He is unable to handle his past, meaning he is unable to move