Personal Narrative: I Give Up Your Passion

I believe in giving up your passion

I believe in giving up your passion. From a young age it was drilled into my head that I had to find a sport, activity, or hobby to be above average at. Sadly throughout my childhood I was nowhere near above average at things. Trust me when I say tried everything. From cross country to the french horn. You name the sport or activity I tried it. It wasn 't that I didn 't give it my all or anything, it 's just that I didn 't excel. All my friends had that thing they were good at..but me. Not having anything to keep me busy after school I experienced my first depressive episode. This was right before graduating middle school. Starting high school I felt defeated in a way, I didn 't have something to use as an icebreaker when trying to make friends. Added to the depression was now anxiety. Knowing the crew …show more content…
My biggest fear was making up for lost time, the thought of not being accepted back hadn 't even crossed my mind. The first practice back my coach asked for me to wait back as the other girls went to run. I started spilling out that I promise to train harder than any girl on the team. The words that came out of his mouth next leave me speechless to this day. He told me that he thought I had had too many “setbacks”. I was so in shock that I couldn 't even process what he was saying. He continued to say in a non believing voice that I could “try it out again” and “see what happens”. They had completely given up on me. This didn 't make sense to me, because I did everything they wanted me to. I bettered myself. Rowing was my passion. How could my coaches say I had too many set backs? My whole life I had heard “When one puts you down, you go stand up, and fight harder!”. “You don 't let them win!” I was told. That 's what I tried to do at first. I tried to fight harder. With the negativity I received back from them, it was clear what I had to