The way I am, I have high ambition, yet terribly afraid of failing in life. To the world, I walk in with my head held high, inside I am filled with anxiety. There is no chemical formula to explain why I am, the way I am It seems more complicated than what it appears. Truth be told it slightly is in my opinion more complex, how does a young lady appear to look so well put together when in reality she is not. I can say it was the influence of my parents and my High School experience for the reason why I am today. To start off, growing up, I was one of the “smart kids”, the kid who was always at the top of the class, the kid who always had a positive outlook on life. When I was 12 years old life was great, positive attitude and an excellent
…show more content…
My dad, first of all, makes 25% of who I am. I never thought I would have a relationship with him, he was always in my life, but we could never really agree on anything. The main reason why is because he always struggled with expressing his emotions, however, he had a wicked sense of humor. I believe I have a sarcastic sense of humor however I never thought it would be like his. Never in my 18 years did I think that we’d have something in common or at least a certain aspect that we share. I realized this when writing an essay for my Spanish class about my family back in the 9th …show more content…
We all have moments of defeat some greater than others, mine happens to be my biggest fear. I have never admitted to anyone that I have this intense fear of failure. I developed this fear throughout my transition into high school. As mentioned before I was a “star student”, one of the top females in my class. I was so accustomed to always being praised and rewarded for my work ethic in school. When I started High school I had a difficult time adapting to the ways teachers grade students and how the curriculum worked. What really got to me was to see that I showed low to the average performance in my classes, even though I worked hard. It was a culture shock to see that there was more than a handful of students who excel better than me. This adaptation and competition with my peers affected my single sided
My dad, first of all, makes 25% of who I am. I never thought I would have a relationship with him, he was always in my life, but we could never really agree on anything. The main reason why is because he always struggled with expressing his emotions, however, he had a wicked sense of humor. I believe I have a sarcastic sense of humor however I never thought it would be like his. Never in my 18 years did I think that we’d have something in common or at least a certain aspect that we share. I realized this when writing an essay for my Spanish class about my family back in the 9th …show more content…
We all have moments of defeat some greater than others, mine happens to be my biggest fear. I have never admitted to anyone that I have this intense fear of failure. I developed this fear throughout my transition into high school. As mentioned before I was a “star student”, one of the top females in my class. I was so accustomed to always being praised and rewarded for my work ethic in school. When I started High school I had a difficult time adapting to the ways teachers grade students and how the curriculum worked. What really got to me was to see that I showed low to the average performance in my classes, even though I worked hard. It was a culture shock to see that there was more than a handful of students who excel better than me. This adaptation and competition with my peers affected my single sided