The safety of our classrooms become compromised, and the sunshine that lights up those rooms meant for learning can possibly become a death trap. The hallways where we interact with others, and the direct line to other support rooms, washrooms and all exits become a constricting hug of fear, and all those little lives that have yet to be exposed to such extreme behaviours are vulnerable and exposed. If you ever want to know how effective your actions, words or behaviours are in the event of a crisis? Well a child can pick up on these cues, those little buggers are very intuitive and smarter then we think, they will ask you what’s up, and ask why. We had just gotten settled into the classrooms when the RCMP, came calmly walking into the school and quietly informed us of the events that were unfolding just across the playground from us. Remember when I said this was not my first go around with a crisis? Well this was my first go around with an untrained lockdown that we never thought we would ever have to do, or be a participant of an unwanted game of cat and mouse. It was also the first time that not …show more content…
January 22nd, 2015 wouldn’t be my last lockdown experience, but it affected me so greatly that I had to examine if this was going to haunt me for a very long time, and it has. Who I am in the moment of crisis is very adaptable, it does not faze me of another person’s actions, my reaction as a mother, in an educational setting, alone, or in a group is always the same, to make sure everyone is safe and secure to the best of my ability. However, when I am alone and have a moment to think, feel out what I went through and all the emotions tied to those moments can being me to tears. That day opened my eyes of how to effectively manipulate my environment to meet the needs to safely and securely handle individuals as calmly as I can be, but still it always seems to take a part of me with it and my own personal faith and security is questioned. Seeking out counseling and have the ability to verbalize what happened has been very affective for myself after the events unfold, it is my only vice after a crisis intervention. While many might think addressing those emotions tied to an incident as weak in character, I personally think acknowledging those emotions, good or bad, teaches you your triggers as well as your strengths and weaknesses and how we are emotionally, physically, mentally and