My Family Sexual Molestation

Sexual molestation to me is a very sore subject to deal with or even write about. The definition of sexual molestation is the action of forcing undesired sexual behavior by one person to another. To me, there are many different things that come to my mind when those words are mentioned. Those words have been drilled into my mind ever since I was about 6 years old. When I first learned what those words meant, I began to develop more fear than I have ever felt. Even though I was very young, I always tend to blame myself for the fact that I was never able to say no. I constantly lived in fear to be judged for something I could not stop. Sexual molestation is something I lived with and fought through by myself until last year. I knew my family …show more content…
Charles M. Blow, writer of “Surviving Child Sexual Abuse” states that “as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse I can say with some authority that no one should take an ounce of joy in these revelations and accusations”(par.6). No one should ever have to ask why people do not confess to being sexually molested. It is not something easy to even say or even mention to others. When a child is sexually abused, it breaks the bond of trust that any child has(Blow par.8). When a child is abused they stop trusting anyone that is around them. I believe that it happens due to the fact that those who they did trust hurt them. They do not trust anyone anymore because they that the same outcome will occur. It would be near to impossible to regain all the trust they had in people anytime soon. Charles M. Blow, writer of “Surviving Child Sexual Abuse” states that sexual molestation is “ a spiritual act of violence that attacks not only the body but also the mind and soul of the victim.”(par. 8). Yes, sexual molestation may be physical, but it does not necessarily hurt as much as the damage that it causes the person emotionally. I know this because of my experience with sexual molestation. The trauma is drilled into my head and my emotions, it is nowhere near my body. The effects are worse than any trauma one can think of. In my experience I have had trouble with many …show more content…
Those two little words have haunted me ever since it has actually happened to me. That phrase to me means being touched in any way even when the person who is being touched says no. Since the age of six I knew that i was actually living it. Today I know now that it is actually called statutory rape or sexual abuse. Even though that was the correct term I always see it as sexual molestation. Even though I define sexual molestation as that it actually means to force undesired sexual behavior by one person to another even when told no. When hearing those two words I can not stop the little rise of fear that comes to my mind and my body. Blame surrounds me whenever flashbacks come crashing to my mind. No matter how many times I tell myself that it was not my fault I could never believe it. I never had the guts to say no no matter how many times my mind yelled at me to say it. Sexual molestation is a subject I have lived with all my life and have fought through it on my own until my family eventually discovered the truth. The biggest fear that I had once people discovered what happened to me was the horrible things they would say about me. Being judged for something I really had no control of was a big factor as to why I never said anything. Once I reached high school I never had a reason to tell anyone what had happened to me and for that I was glad. People do not really know