Beals relies upon her fortitude through several internal and external conflicts to demonstrate her strength. After a Christmas party Melba thinks “Even though all of them had definite opinions about my adventures at Central High, I had vowed not to talk about it. No …show more content…
155 paragraph 5). Melba described how she felt content for the first time in a long time after a Christmas dinner with her family. Its importance lies in Melba’s wish to be able to feel like a common girl, similar to how she felt preliminary to when she began attending Central. Her covet shows her internal flounder with wanting to be a normal girl clashing against her warrior side dying out as she learns to balance in between both of them. Keeping her home life and family gatherings as a time to be normal Melba, while making her time to be a fierce warrior at school. To balance both takes a large quantity of resilience because it is hard to be strong while suffering, but it takes a whole lot more strength to be yourself but Melba however has to do both continuously. Melba proves her emotional strength even more as she describes how she at first “Deeply resented being left out,” since she was “making huge sacrifices that would benefit everyone in the future. “ However, after thinking about it, she realized that “ sometimes we were excluded not as an act of hostility but because they had forgotten about us since we weren’t visible in their lives anymore.” …show more content…
Such as when she says, “Tonight I feel love from my own people. Everybody tried to make us happy. There is the tiniest flicker of hope and joy inside me. Maybe things will work out. Please, God, won’t you allow Minnijean come back to this school. I promise I’ll help her be stronger.” (Beals pg. 153 paragraph 3). Melba wrote in her diary about how she feels happy after attending a party for her and the other nine students attending Central, and then goes to explain how she wants Minnijean to be welcome when she returns to Central and that she would help Minnijean stand strong against the harassment by her bullies. This flicker of hope she describes is the one of many that will lead her through her struggles of integration. It allows others to take notice that even through all the pain and suffering Melba endures, she stills has moments like this that help her move forward in the hope of a brighter future where there is racial equality. Another one of these examples of Melba finding faith in the future is when she states “A girl smiled at me today, another gave me directions, still another boy whispered the page I should turn to in our textbook. This is going to work. It will take a lot more strength from me, but it’s going to work. It will take more time than I thought. But we’re going to have integration in Little Rock.” (Beals pg. 117 paragraph 3). Melba makes a diary