I knew I was attracted to women at a very young age, but I didn’t know what “gay” meant. Once I figured out the definition of being gay, I didn’t feel like anyone would accept me. Not only because I was attracted to the same sex, but because I was young. I was afraid that someone was going to tell me “it’s a phase” because of how old I was, but I was certain about how I felt. Before telling anyone, I convinced myself that I was a bisexual so it didn’t seem as weird. I did have attraction to men and I tried dating guys while in high school to make sure that it wasn’t a phase. After my junior year in high school, I realized I was gay. I wasn’t sexually attracted to men, but I’m not that typical “gold star lesbian” who thinks all men are disgusting and I absolutely want nothing to do with them. Yes, there are some men out there that are rather handsome, but nonetheless, their looks are not enough to steer me away from the attractions that I have for …show more content…
I wasn’t and still am not the type of gay person who flaunts it or wears the rainbow clothes. If you want to know about my sexuality, you have to ask. It’s not my go to conversation starter. Unless you’re hitting on me profusely, then I’ll have to let you know. I never “came out” per say. I’ve told all 4 of my siblings, which one of them are a lesbian as well. She’s supported me since the beginning. Funny story, when I was 11, my sister was dating a guy at the time and I would frequently stay the night at her house on the weekends. One night she decided to tell me that she was bi-sexual. She had to explain to me what a bi-sexual was and as soon as she said, “It means I like boys and girls”, I stopped her and said, “Gross. That’s not right. I don’t think you should like girls”. You may proceed to call me a hypocrite or you can cut me some slack since I was only 11 years old. But yes, I grew out of that negative habit pretty quick and look where it got me! I turned out to be like my