Personal Narrative: I Love A Different Way Of Life

It feels very strange to read your reply. I say strange because I feel several things all together and I want to explain them to you:
I do like to read you want to talk about it
In an odd way, I 'm almost glad you don 't like to hear about it, because it probably means you feel what we do in our intimacy is so special and you are afraid I 'm having something that special with someone else. But I 'm not sure about this feeling. I shouldn 't be liking this at all.
I am afraid. I am afraid of hurting you. I am afraid of loosing you if I hurt you.
But on the other hand, I am also afraid of loosing the respect for myself in this story. I do want to stay true to my beliefs, so I feel that if I end up not doing what I want to do, I 'll be bending and that might not be good for me either.

Again, I 'll try to be as clear as possible, so sorry for some of the words or expressions you will read from here on. …show more content…
I love a lot of people, and I love them at lots of intensities. And for me, sharing with people I love is one of the great things in life. I think I am actually addicted to this. Sharing is beautiful in so many ways, and it keeps me up and full of good energy. I consider as sharing a great range of activities. From being flatmates, doing sports together, talking about private lives to sharing beds. So I develop intense relationships with people. For example, I 've got a very deep relationship with Marta, I do share a lot with her. I might even share more with her than with you some times. Same with Gabriel. It 's just that with them, the sharing doesn 't involve