I recognize the moment instantly. I’m washing the mixing bowl as mom flips the pancakes and dad and I belt out as he strolls upstairs “SHE SAYS WE GOT TO HOLD ON TO WHAT WE GOT, IT DOESN’T MAKE A DIFFERENCE IF WE MAKE IT OR NOT” My mom laughs as she dances around me and we both make a funny face when Dad doesn’t yell out the chorus as he usually does. Instead he runs down the stairs, his face pale and his voice shaking as he sputters, “Something’s wrong”. I watch my mother and I run upstairs. Present me begins to shake and I try to hind behind Nani but she’s no where to be found. I follow the scene upstairs and watch as my dad props Nani’s body up and screams at her to wake up. Her body is limp. He lays her back down and my mother starts applying CPR but nothing is working. I turn away as my dad starts to cry out, “This can’t be happening”. I watch myself standing there, wanting to runaway, but unable to move. Frozen in place watching my life apart. My dad rushes towards me and stammers “I’m sorry” over and over again as I start to weep. “I can’t relive this again” I begged and once again Nani is standing in front of me. “This is what he dreams of every night”, she breathes. “This is all he thinks
I recognize the moment instantly. I’m washing the mixing bowl as mom flips the pancakes and dad and I belt out as he strolls upstairs “SHE SAYS WE GOT TO HOLD ON TO WHAT WE GOT, IT DOESN’T MAKE A DIFFERENCE IF WE MAKE IT OR NOT” My mom laughs as she dances around me and we both make a funny face when Dad doesn’t yell out the chorus as he usually does. Instead he runs down the stairs, his face pale and his voice shaking as he sputters, “Something’s wrong”. I watch my mother and I run upstairs. Present me begins to shake and I try to hind behind Nani but she’s no where to be found. I follow the scene upstairs and watch as my dad props Nani’s body up and screams at her to wake up. Her body is limp. He lays her back down and my mother starts applying CPR but nothing is working. I turn away as my dad starts to cry out, “This can’t be happening”. I watch myself standing there, wanting to runaway, but unable to move. Frozen in place watching my life apart. My dad rushes towards me and stammers “I’m sorry” over and over again as I start to weep. “I can’t relive this again” I begged and once again Nani is standing in front of me. “This is what he dreams of every night”, she breathes. “This is all he thinks