The day my grandma passed away is a day I can’t ever forget. It was the day my life changed drastically. She was the woman that raised me while my own parents couldn’t. She was there for me growing up and at the time, I didn’t realize how important she was or how important any of my family members were. It changed my perspective on life and I felt like a part of my innocence was taken away from me. I remember that day so well, like it happened yesterday. I was in the 6th grade at the time and I was getting picked up from school when I got into a car full of sad family members, my cousins and I sat there confused until they broke the news to us, "grandma died" I didn 't know how to feel, there were so many emotions running through me and I didn
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Should I act sad because it’s my grandma? Or should I just be strong and not show any emotions and just help everyone deal with their emotions? Of course, I went with being “strong”, I didn’t cry nor did I grieve. All I did was help my family cook for our guests and watched my younger cousins. My aunt told me it was okay to cry on the third day, but at this point, I couldn’t produce tears. My family assumed that I didn’t care as much as they did and that wasn’t true. If anything, I cared just as much. But I didn’t know how to let them know that I cared as much as they did so I just left their remarks …show more content…
I didn’t know how to grieve. I didn’t know how to deal with my emotions. I didn’t know if I should just act like everything’s okay or act like how I really felt. But I knew if I acted how I felt, it would be frowned upon. I cried a week later at my grandma’s funeral because I knew that day, my feelings were valid. I was allowed to grieve and I was allowed to be sad and I was allowed to cry as much as I wanted that day. I’ve never felt such strong emotions before. I didn’t know that a loss could hurt that much. After that day, I’ve never really dealt with the loss of my grandma. I cried and I got to grieve on the day of her funeral, but not the days where it feels so normal and I think that she should be
Should I act sad because it’s my grandma? Or should I just be strong and not show any emotions and just help everyone deal with their emotions? Of course, I went with being “strong”, I didn’t cry nor did I grieve. All I did was help my family cook for our guests and watched my younger cousins. My aunt told me it was okay to cry on the third day, but at this point, I couldn’t produce tears. My family assumed that I didn’t care as much as they did and that wasn’t true. If anything, I cared just as much. But I didn’t know how to let them know that I cared as much as they did so I just left their remarks …show more content…
I didn’t know how to grieve. I didn’t know how to deal with my emotions. I didn’t know if I should just act like everything’s okay or act like how I really felt. But I knew if I acted how I felt, it would be frowned upon. I cried a week later at my grandma’s funeral because I knew that day, my feelings were valid. I was allowed to grieve and I was allowed to be sad and I was allowed to cry as much as I wanted that day. I’ve never felt such strong emotions before. I didn’t know that a loss could hurt that much. After that day, I’ve never really dealt with the loss of my grandma. I cried and I got to grieve on the day of her funeral, but not the days where it feels so normal and I think that she should be