I've been trying to figure out the words to say to you. Sometimes they don't come out right. I find myself wondering how in the world I got here and really in disbelief that any of it is going on. I can't help it but it consumes my time. I'm so anxious and I can't sleep.
I don't want my marriage with your mother to end. I keep asking myself, when did I become such a piece of garbage?
I wish I had a disease like cancer or something . I wouldn't feel so ashamed. When you have cancer people wear pink ribbons for you, they go on long walks to raise money, they encourage you and want to be with you and you don't have to feel like some kind of social outcast.
I Feel like such a miserable person. I had determination and goals. I wanted things in life. I believed in myself. I was a good man. I use to see the world in a beautiful light. But now I feel like the walls have closed in on me. I can't take this anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I can say or do to change things. …show more content…
I've shied away from my friends because of my shame. I'm ruining the rest of my life. I want to get myself back to the man you all thought I was and put myself in the way of beauty and restore all that had been damaged. I have to want to start living but I feel nowhere ready. I am ready for the Son to shine down upon me and to feel His breeze on my face and for my problems to turn into something else. I have been trying so hard but it's seems insurmountable when you feel like there is a hole that swallows you up. Being alone hurts and is painful. Pain. It's a simple word isn't it? But when you're in pain all you want to do is to stop it. You don't care about the cost. You just want it to end. And when you can crawl out of the fog to see the cost, well, I ask myself, "was it worth
I don't want my marriage with your mother to end. I keep asking myself, when did I become such a piece of garbage?
I wish I had a disease like cancer or something . I wouldn't feel so ashamed. When you have cancer people wear pink ribbons for you, they go on long walks to raise money, they encourage you and want to be with you and you don't have to feel like some kind of social outcast.
I Feel like such a miserable person. I had determination and goals. I wanted things in life. I believed in myself. I was a good man. I use to see the world in a beautiful light. But now I feel like the walls have closed in on me. I can't take this anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I can say or do to change things. …show more content…
I've shied away from my friends because of my shame. I'm ruining the rest of my life. I want to get myself back to the man you all thought I was and put myself in the way of beauty and restore all that had been damaged. I have to want to start living but I feel nowhere ready. I am ready for the Son to shine down upon me and to feel His breeze on my face and for my problems to turn into something else. I have been trying so hard but it's seems insurmountable when you feel like there is a hole that swallows you up. Being alone hurts and is painful. Pain. It's a simple word isn't it? But when you're in pain all you want to do is to stop it. You don't care about the cost. You just want it to end. And when you can crawl out of the fog to see the cost, well, I ask myself, "was it worth